Servus, dear visitor!

Servus and a warm welcome to my other "Von Pappe" blog.

Edit 1: I have been thinking about this for quite some time now and have come to the decision to change this blog into a more personal one - more of a kind of diary of someone who struggles with Hashimoto thyroid disease (and therefore sometimes also depression) and also often with trying to be an artist (which both takes quite a lot of courage I found - especially when you lack self confidence ;).

Sometimes I feel I need to write down thoughts, ideas, plans or goals - just to make them "count" or more "real" for myself in a way. So what you will find in this place are traces of my personal journey towards feeling healthier again (after also having been diagnosed with borreliosis more recently) and also more confident as a creative.

I have also decided to keep this blog - though being quite personal - set to "public" in the hope that others who struggle, too and read my blog, feel less alone on their "journeys".

So if you choose to read posts on here you may well read about feelings and thoughts that are usually not being shared out there in crafty blogland and on facebook and all the other social platforms, where we all want to feel surrounded by shiny, happy people only to feel good and not be reminded of our own sorrows and struggles (which I totally understand to be honest).

Edit 2: After more consideration I have also decided to disable the commenting function, so no one needs to feel pressed to leave a comment, as some of my posts may seem as if I was "fishing for words of encouragement" I found...which definitely is the least I want for my wonderful creative friends out there, who care, to feel like!
I know you care - and for that I feel blessed and thankful! *

Please, know that I am fine. I just - like everybody else - have (harder) times when I am wearing the "darker glasses" and when I question everything and everyone and especially myself...and I also have times - and these are by far the majority - when it is just the usual artist's struggle...or real life struggle...or simply having gotten up on the wrong side of my bed....nothing exceptional. Just life.

Take care! XXX

PS: in case you want to contact me, do so via email under

* a huge, heartfelt THANK YOU to all those who have left uplifting comments on here in the past! I've loved them all and always will. xxx

Friday, 21 March 2014

blackbird fly

"Blackbird" has always been one of my most favourite songs by The Beatles. I just love the lyrics and have been taking comfort since I was a child in the thought that you can always take these sunken eyes and learn to see...

...and that when your wings are broken you just have to learn to fly again - differently. Life now and then "wounds" us - this is part of life and we would lie to ourselves if we believed that we can always avoid being wounded. Living successfully means to deal with a damage done, accept it and learn  to work your way around it or simply change your old behaviour...or simply the way you fly.

I wrote the song's lyrics along the branches so they look like ants climbing the trees bark.

Materials used: brown kraft paper, acrylic colours, brayer, designer paper, Decou-page matte, distress markers, stencil, old book pages

Branches and leaves were cut free hand, shading was done with distress markers over decou-page glue.

Why is it that birds touch our very souls so easily? Some say it is because they can get so much closer to heaven than we can (and without a window pane from a plane between them and the very air). But I believe it is their ability to sing the most beautiful songs. Wouldn't it be wonderful if we communicated through music instead of spoken words? (lol....just imagine getting a ticket from a police officer and he sings it to you instead of bark it in your face ;)

Leonardo da Vinci watched birds flight very closely and did the most wonderful drawings and studies. He was highly fascinated by the way they move their wings and tails to steer. And even though we have airplanes now and are able to travel the skies too, we still admire how these fragile creatures inhabit the sky.