Servus, dear visitor!



Servus and a warm welcome to my other "Von Pappe" blog.

Edit 1: I have been thinking about this for quite some time now and have come to the decision to change this blog into a more personal one - more of a kind of diary of someone who struggles with Hashimoto thyroid disease (and therefore sometimes also depression) and also often with trying to be an artist (which both takes quite a lot of courage I found - especially when you lack self confidence ;).

Sometimes I feel I need to write down thoughts, ideas, plans or goals - just to make them "count" or more "real" for myself in a way. So what you will find in this place are traces of my personal journey towards feeling healthier again (after also having been diagnosed with borreliosis more recently) and also more confident as a creative.

I have also decided to keep this blog - though being quite personal - set to "public" in the hope that others who struggle, too and read my blog, feel less alone on their "journeys".

So if you choose to read posts on here you may well read about feelings and thoughts that are usually not being shared out there in crafty blogland and on facebook and all the other social platforms, where we all want to feel surrounded by shiny, happy people only to feel good and not be reminded of our own sorrows and struggles (which I totally understand to be honest).

Edit 2: After more consideration I have also decided to disable the commenting function, so no one needs to feel pressed to leave a comment, as some of my posts may seem as if I was "fishing for words of encouragement" I found...which definitely is the least I want for my wonderful creative friends out there, who care, to feel like!
I know you care - and for that I feel blessed and thankful! *

Please, know that I am fine. I just - like everybody else - have (harder) times when I am wearing the "darker glasses" and when I question everything and everyone and especially myself...and I also have times - and these are by far the majority - when it is just the usual artist's struggle...or real life struggle...or simply having gotten up on the wrong side of my bed....nothing exceptional. Just life.

Take care! XXX


PS: in case you want to contact me, do so via email under vonpappe2@yahoo.de


* a huge, heartfelt THANK YOU to all those who have left uplifting comments on here in the past! I've loved them all and always will. xxx

Thursday, 1 February 2018

New organisation...new year's resolutions...

(for my few blog followers: please, read the edited introductory blurb on top of the blog to learn about some changes. If you then decide to un-follow, I can understand and won't feel offended at all).


Just so I don't forget how organised my studio can be at times...and also to mark the start of a new episode on my artistic journey (which is the logical consequence to my resolution to take myself more serious and get more serious as an artist).

I think I will love to have that "fun side" of creativity on my other blog and I also wouldn not want to miss it - but I found I have been neglecting my more earnest approach to expressing myself through art (in words and images) for way too long now and I feel that I can't go on just considering painting and creating as just a hobby or a series of DT jobs. I feel I am in search of finding myself in my art....and that can't be done in fun projects.

So - to start at some point - I decided to rearrange my tools and materials in a more organised way...as part of taking things "more serious" and also making that visible for myself. So I have finally managed to sort through my crammed shelves and bring order to my unbelievable (!) loads of stash. Part of the load still comes from my years as an arts and wood works teacher (which in a way makes you a hoarder and up-cycler by profession), but having been on the DecoArt design team since 2014 (with just a short interruption) has much increased my collection of acrylic paints and media - and also my love for them.




If one would have asked me right after I had left arts university if I could ever imagine myself being a painter or working in colour, I would have said "no" - as I was certain at that time (and had been regularly told so and proven by my teachers at university) that I was no painter at all and would never be - simply due to total lack of understanding colour.

Sometimes I still feel kind of "surprised by myself" and where I have come to, when I enter my studio and see the IKEA trolley crammed with paints and media and sorted brushes (I need them all and I use them all!), palette knifes and other painters tools...is this really me using all of this (almost as if I knew what I am doing)? And enjoying it as it feels playful and a rewarding thing to do?

Does this already make me an artist? Me - the one they said would never be more than an arts teacher...knowing about many techniques, about composition and styles and art history, but not being artistic at all myself...?



Every tiny gap between shelves is being used for additional storage options...

The Japanese towels I use like little curtains to hide crammed ugly boxes behind were a gift from my sister and I love these a lot. I generally find Ukiyo-e beautiful and inspiring to look at - both - for the patterns and colours used in them and the imagery.


More DecoArt stuff (premium paints to the left and specialties to the right) alongside coloured pencils and Distress and spray inks and paints - all squeezed between some inspiring books and collected cardboard from old packaging (to the left). First attempts in Encaustic sitting on top of the right tray. I've put them to where I can see them, so I don't forget to continue working on these.

The problem with loving and trying out many different new techniques is that I don't stick with one technique for long enough to get sufficient practice to feel I am mastering it...so when I turn to it again, I find I have to start from almost the beginning...and then I ask myself why I stopped doing it in the first place...but that's one of my flaws I struggle with and that I want to work on, to get better and "more serious" with my art.


Loads of books on various media, styles and techniques on the top shelf there...below my metal and wire work tools. The white and red plastic containers hold mostly Tim Holtz stamp sets. It was the discovery of a Tim Holtz stamp set almost six years ago by the way, that opened to me the door to the world of rubber stamping, tag and card making (more of the first, almost none of the latter to be honest), Distress and die cutting fun - and challenge blogs. All of which helped me a lot to overcome my wrong image about myself as a creative that I had developed at arts university.

Now it seems I am bit by bit returning to "more earnest" fine arts (hoping I can incorporate what I love about mixed media into more earnest work) - which I would never have wanted or been able to without having taken the alternative route via techniques and styles that are simply fun and playful.


My little assistant...


...always alert just in case there's the slightest chance of getting a little goodie (simply for being the cutie she is).



My studio desk with my Big Shot to the left - a gift from my husband, that added a lot of fun to my crafting and that I wouldn't want to miss. The pink plastic bag with roses is for snippets, used baby wipes and paper towels and other waste. I love that I can simply shove these right from my desk into the bag.
The red metal drawers hold my other rubber stamps - sorted by themes as "mark making", "nature", "Halloween", "Christmas", "Steampunk" and such.

In the background there's my husband's work space (and play zone as well...how happy the person who only needs a laptop, big screen and internet to have a happy relaxing time...;).
I love Fridays when he works at home and when we spend the day together - both being creative - him, designing outstanding speech recognition software, me, working on design team projects. Our dog always lying at the spot on the floor that is at equal distance to the both of us.

Throughout the last years I have developed my own preferred procedures and ways of creating (which obviously can only be developed by repeated action instead of logical thinking and planning) - I need to have a paper tray (an old box lid) to my left (oh, I have tried to get rid of it several times, but it somehow always "materialises" there again) - filled with ephemera, snippets from die cuts and paper scraps -, the craft sheet fixed to the table, space for a palette to the right, stamping inks and letter stamps right behind me (as well as my Sizzix dies), all other crafting tools in reach...


I found some older images of my studio from four years ago...


Haha, only two containers for Tim Holtz stamp sets back then...and no trolley as there were no acrylic paints that needed storage (just a few tubes of cheap paint in a plastic container somewhere).


The pink and orange metal buckets on trays that held felt tip pens and such, have gone now. Was this really already so long ago? I can see items there I still haven't used a lot...and others that didn't make it on to following years and re-organisations. But hey, you can only find out what you love doing and what you don't by trying it out. Over the years some techniques, media and materials turned out to have become favourites...at last I dare say that now. There were times when I felt I needed to do and know it all. An old (and wrong) belief as I found. One of many to unmask, overcome and get rid of.